I had a feeling this would happen on my blog journey… I just didn’t expect it so soon.
I think I found my “why.”
Before now my why has been to build a business through my blog to be able to stay home with my ever growing munchkin. But I’ve been struggling with that quite a bit since it doesn’t help anyone but me. Then what happens when I find my way home… what will sustain the drive then?
It’s been a weird couple of weeks that led me to today and finding this new “why.” I’ve felt lost, depressed, lonely, angry and have sought God harder than I have in a very long time.
I also needed to find a way to surrender to Him. I needed to come to the point of laying my plans aside and trust in His plans for me. Which has been an awful process, but much needed. Because that means learning to find peace with the possibility that I may not get to stay home with the munchkin. And that makes me very sad.
But I continue to tell myself to trust God. He has plans, and regardless of what they look like for me, it’s for His glory.
Cue this new “why.” After doing very basic research into this topic (yes I’m vague for now), there is very minimal support and resources for this special group of parents.
Over the past couple of weeks, I’ve been wondering what in the heck do I have to offer… with this topic, it’s a whole hell of a lot!
But here’s the catch, and why I’m vague and all secretive at the moment. It’s incredibly personal and very challenging for me to publicly open this door to my life. It’s gonna take courage, time and some homework before I start down this road.
So I may be taking a bit of a break from posting and progressing with my page. I’ve been feeling the need to get focused and come up with a game plan lately, but I need to plan this carefully. I want to do this right!
So stay tuned!!